ON THIS DAY IN MY PERSONAL HISTORY… JUNE 24, 1971
She was 25. I was 26. We had barely been married six months. Three months earlier, Betty was diagnosed with inoperable brain tumor. On this day in 1971, she returned to the spirit realm. Yet she has continued to help me remember her, not just as Betty but as Minervina, Constantine’s first wife and mother of his firstborn son Crispus. It all came back to me on this day in 2011. And a flood of other revelations followed.
PAYING OFF MY KARMIC DEBT FROM 17 CENTURIES AGO
I held her hand when she took her last breath. And then I kissed her on the lips for the last time. I did not cry. There were no tears left anymore after three months of crying secretly, at home or in the car on my way to or from the hospital where as my first wife lay dying in bed.
THE CONSTANTINE CONNECTION AND KARMIC PAIN: BETTY WAS MINERVINA, ALSO MY FIRST WIFE IN THAT LIFETIME
On this day in 2011, the 40th anniversary of Betty’s passing, I realized that her death was most directly related to my lifetime as the Roman emperor Constantine I. And that all the pain and suffering I went through during our final months, and for quite a few years afterward, was my karmic debt for the (mis)deeds I committed 17 centuries before when Betty was incarnated as Minervina.
Back in the early 4th century, I was being groomed by my father Constantius to become a Roman emperor. Betty was then known as Minervina, a beautiful young woman of Greek ancestry. We fell in love and had a son – Crispus. But my route to the Roman imperial throne required me to marry a woman from a noble Roman family.So I obeyed my father and dumped Minervina, taking our son Crispus with me. I loved him dearly and wanted to groom him for his eventual succession to the throne.
You can just imagine how heartbroken Minervina must have been. Being tossed aside like a used garment. It breaks my heart just to think about it even now, 17 centuries later.
For more, see… Constantine and I (June 28, 2011).
The most important thing we are supposed to learn from this is that the only way to stop the karmic pain is by sharing our love and compassion for and with our loved ones, as well as for and with the rest of humanity at large. Guess that’s why I needed to incarnate many more times.
Evidently I had not learned this lesson before, despite the thousands of incarnations on this planet and elsewhere. Or maybe it was because my other (ALTZAR) soul splits who had not learned it as yet. So I needed to step up for all of us. I am sure you will recognize some if not most of them of them…
Back to my current lifetime…
Betty and I met in July 1970 by chance on a tennis court. We fell in love instantly and got married on Dec 19, 1970, St. Nicholas Day, the saint-protector of the Djurdjevic family. And, as I was to learn 40 years later, also a Constantine I contemporary who actually met the emperor in Constantinople.In February 1971, we went to see the film “Love Story.” We both cried at its tragic ending. Little did we know that in a few months, we’d be living it.
In November 2008, I honored that memory with a Despacho (a shamanic offering) – per the suggestion of my Inca shamanic mentor. And I also offered her this musical tribute. Betty LOVED to hear me play.
Love Story – piano version – by Bob Djurdjevic (Nov 13, 2008)
My Betty Despacho… fire ceremony.
Much love Altzar
Betty’s Spirit Lives On… (excerpt)
HAIKU, Maui, July 23, 2011 – It took four more days for another penny to drop. As I was reviewing my notes from the Kona conference today (July 26), my heart jumped when I read this quote:
“When a split (soul) passes away, it becomes a guide and its energy gets integrated with the living soul(s).”
Now we know not only what but HOW it is done. So even though Betty whom I knew and loved as my young wife is gone, she is back in my life now in the form of spiritual energy.
Also see BETTY’s DESPACHO – http://www.altzar.org/Spiritual/Betty_Despacho.html
UPDATE JUNE 24, 2018
ANOTHER OWL SIGHTING: SIGN FROM MINERVINA? (BETTY)
When I was coming back from a walk the evening of June 21, the summer solstice, around 8:30 PM or so, I saw a big owl on the fence of a house two doers up the street from me.
Even though he was no more 15 feet (5m) away, the just looked at me motionless, still as a Greek or Roman statue, just as I stared right back at him. We both seemed both curious about each other. The Owl looked like he was standing guard and waiting for me.
I have never seen a bird, especially one as big as this giant owl, stay so close to a human without moving.
Here are the pictures I took today trying to reconstruct the scene.
And it was only today (June 24, the anniversary of Betty’s passing), as I was walking back to that spot that the penny dropped. Was that owl a sign from Minervina, Betty’s incarnation 17 centuries? Is that why he has been visiting me all these years?
You see, the owl has been a symbol of wisdom both in ancient Greece and Rome. The “owl of Athena” or the “owl of Minerva” — has been used as a symbol of knowledge, wisdom, perspicacity and erudition throughout the Western world.
In Greek mythology, a little owl (Athene noctua) traditionally represents or accompanies Athena, the virgin goddess of wisdom, or Minerva, her syncretic incarnation in Roman mythology. And Betty’s name was Minervina – the Roman diminutive for a “little owl.”
Wonder if that’s the same one that used to visit me when I had big trees in my back yard? Which is how and why I named my place in Scottsdale – OWL’S NEST (see https://wp.me/p3R16m-4y).